kekasih yang tak dianggap… heuheu…

April 16, 2009

makin ske plak dgr lagu ni… huhuu… kalo dlm keta, dok repeat lagu ni aje… muahaha…

Aku mentari tapi tak menghangatkanmu
Aku pelangi  tak memberi warna dihidupmu
Aku sang bulan tak menerangi malammu
Akulah bintang yang hilang ditelan kegelapan

Selalu itu yang
Kau ucapkan padaku
Sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
Aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
Menahan setiap amarah

Aku sang bulan
Tak menerangi malammu
Akulah bintang
Yang hilang ditelan kegelapan

Sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
Aku hanya bisa mencoba mengalah
Menahan setiap amarah
Sebagai kekasih yang tak dianggap
Aku hanya bisa mencoba bersabar
Ku yakin kau kan berubah

- kertas

kertasband


Apa ada dalam saku?

March 6, 2009

huhuhu… tgh sangap + malash + tunggu mase nak balek ruma… ketua aku 2 ari MC… x sehat… jadinye, aku pun 2 ari jugaklah macam berpoya² je kat opis… wat keje dgn kadar yg amat² perlahan… kadang² melahu terus… ahahaha… tambah lagi, dekat² kontrak nak abis neh… lagi la malas + xde mood + demotivated dibuatnye… hmm… aku tatau la ape nasib aku nnt… ketua aku mcm dah kompom da… aku ni je x sure…

actually, aku x mengharap sgt… cumanya, ia satu bonus utk aku memandangkan aku bercadang nak kurangkan jam bekerja lebih masa dek kerana kondisi kesihatan aku yg tak bape nak mengizinkan neh… hukhukhuk… al-maklumlah, aku kan insan yg lemah… wakakaka… senang je nak dpt penyakit… lagi la kalo duk lama dlm keadaan ber’air-cond’ camnih… penat + saket badan dibuatnye… kalo xde pape, nampaknye terpakselah aku ot mcm bese… takde pe la yg berubah pasni… keje je cam bese dan betullah ckp ketua aku yg lagi sorg tu… camne nak dpt calon suami camni kalo asik dok keje, buat ot je kat opis… hohoho… ntahlah… hidup aku skang keje je kot… kalo ade free time pun, aku abiskan utk family + function/meeting AVON… nak wat camne kan… terpaksa…

arini rase cam nak celita pasal ape yg ade dalam poket kiri kanan aku… poket jaket biru (uniform) keje nih la… hehe… dulu, masa baru² start keje, aku paling x suka pakai jaket biru ni… apatah lagi nak pakai lengkap serba biru dgn suwa die… huahuahua… sebulan sekali pun payah… aku siap bawak sweater utm je utk dipakai ari² kat opis… kalo x pakai, mmg kejung la dibuatnye… tapi sejak management dah bising², kuwakan memo + pekeliling suh pakai uniform keje dan ade dress code plak utk certain² group dlm company ni, maka, terpaksa la aku sarung gak jaket biru nih… tak best betol rasenye masa tuh… seb baek aku ni tergolong dlm org² yg x perlu pakai suwa biru tuh… hoho… pakai jaket je cukup… sejak pakai, lelama rase cam best plak… kalo x pakai rase semacam… haha… sampaikan kalo kuwa time lunch gi tesco ke, pusat bandar ke memana, aku x bukak pun jaket… ahahaha… jenuh la org kiri kanan yg kuwa ngan aku time tu menahan rasa malu dek kerana muka yg da nek tebal… kihkihkih… malu ye pakai baju biru ni kalo org nampak kat luar? ;p ;p ;p… dan satu tabiat aku yg susah nak buang bila da sarung jaket ni, aku suka sinsingkan lengan jaket ni sampai ke siku… hukhukhuk… ye taw… aurat kan… pastu ramai plak yg menegur bulu roma aku ni yg terdedah… hmm… nantilah ye… belum terbuka lagi hati ini nak jadi 100% solehah… sabar ye… akan tiba saatnya, aku berubah spt yg kau mahu… ok? ;p ;p ;p… err… wajarkah aku berubah kerana org len?… ahaha… ye… itu aku akan ubah juga… persepsi itu… sabar ye… wakakaka…

hmm… ok… jaket ini ade 2 poket… normally, poket seblah kiri mmg akan sentiasa diletakkan e-pass (pas kerja) aku… sbb mmg ade lobang supaya nampak muka kite bile letak pas kat situ pun… hoho… dan setiap masa akan ada sepeket tisu muka jenis handkerchief tu dlm poket yg sama… kadang² poket seblah kiri tu juga akan dipenuhi dgn duit kertas beringgit² dan syiling yg agak byk sbb aku asik kulu kilir kutip duit… ahaha… senang, masuk je poket terus… tu jelah pun… kalo time batok aku dtg, akan terselit jugak la ff dlm kocek tu… hihih… ok… abes cite poket seblah kiri…

poket seblah kanan plak, akan sentiasa aku letak kunci keta, kunci rumah dan kunci drawer aku kat opis… mmg 3 gugus kunci lelain… so, bygkan jelah betapa kembung + beratnye poket belah kanan aku tuh… hahaha… kdg², kalo x sempat atau bila aku ke toilet atau ke surau, aku akan bukak jam, gelang + cincin dan masukkan juga ke poket kanan aku… sampai balik keje pun kengkadang lupa nak pakai balik… hehe… sbnrnye motif aku tulis entri ni sbb nak bgtau, kedua² poket kiri kanan aku ni cam nak rabak je aku tgk… hisk hisk… silap hb bleh tercicir sume yg ade dlm poket² nih… haieee… cptla bulan april… gue nak amek uniform baru~!!! ;p ;p ;p


All things are possible…

February 21, 2009

When someone tells you that you can’t do something…17376f8
Look around…
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Consider all options…
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Then GO for it!
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Use all the things Allah gave you. Be creative!
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In the end, you will succeed and prove them wrong!
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Always remember… Nothing is impossible, if your heart is willing… Aja aja… fighting~!!! Go go… cayok~!!! ;p ;p ;p


Golden Circle

January 17, 2009

[entri tertunda, tersimpan dlm draft, tak ter'publish' ;p ;p ;p - 10 januari 2009]

selasa lalu, aku ke butik avon… mcm biase, nak bli brglah… utk opismate aku je pun brgnye… janji tunggu dia kat butik itu lepas keje… tp aku lewat sampai… sudahnye die mendaftar jadi wakil avon sbb lama sgt tunggu aku… heh… bila aku sampai, minah tu tgh isi borang nak jadi wakil… aku pun bagi list brg dia, bia dia bli pakai akaun dia sendiri… tgh² nak setel hal jadi wakil tu, opismate aku ni bgtaw nama aku ada tersenarai kat satu notis board kecil kat butik avon tu… aku idak le nampak sbb mmg rabun jauh… nak gak tgk ape bendenye sampai nama aku ada kat situ… aku ignore je dulu… bia la nama tu kat situ… hehe…

bila mak masuk, aku kenalkan opismate aku ni pada mak… pastu aku bgtaw mak pasal nama aku tu… mak mungkin nampak la sbb pakai 4 mata… rupenye nama aku berada di tangga ke-4 wakil avon terbaik utk butik pasir gudang tuh… kebetulan plak sales girl avon tu terdgr kitorang dok ckp² pasal nama aku tu… dia ckp nasib baik ingatkan, sbb ada hadiah utk nama² yg tersenarai tu… aku dpt perfume percuma lagi sebagai reward kerana telah berjaya menduduki tangga keempat… hukhukhuk… 4 botol perfume aku dpt… aku nak buat ape la ngan perfume² itu… kat rumah pun ade byk lagi… tak terjual dan tak terpakai pun…

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bila ditengok² balik akaun kat avon, rupenye byk jugak yg dah aku sumbangkan ke avon tuh… hohoh… mane la x kaya presiden avon tu ek… hahaha… jam kat bawah ni je cabaran yg aku dpt tanpa perlu usaha sgt kot… otomatik aku jadi wakil dan ahli GC tahun lepas… cantik sgt… huehue… maybe aku berikan pada mak juga jam yg satu ini… jam yg pertama dulu, aku dah bagi kat mak… syg sgt jam tu sbb cantik… tp xpelah… bg mak pakai aje…

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dah byk jugak hadiah free yg aku dpt drpd avon sebab dah capai target² tertentu… yg paling best punye adiah, 2 dinner set dan bangle emas (sadur)… dinner set itu mmg lawa dan mmg sepadan pulak dgn set pinggan mangkuk arcopal yg mak aku dah beli… kebetulan pulak coraknya hampir sama… bangle itu juga aku berikan pada mak… hmm… aku x mengharap sgt status atau keuntungan drpd hasil jualan avon aku… cuma yg bestnya sbb byk dpt hadiah yg unexpected… kiyut² dan cantik² plak tuh… itu yg seronok…

tapi bila dah dpt surat drpd avon kamis lalu ttg percutian ke medan, aku tetibe jadi excited… huhuh… cam best je kan kalo dpt gi medan… tapi mampu ke aku nak buat sales sampai 10k dlm tempoh 6 bulan????… ngaaaa… cam x bley je… tawun lepas punye sales pun baru 15k… mmg la salah satu wish list aku nak capai SUM status thn ni… tp bile tgk target yg aku kena capai tu sampai 30k, cam lemah je nengok… hohoh… kalo full time menjual + mem’promote’ brg avon, bole la kot… hihih…

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ingat nak apdet pasal majlis persaraan mak yang telah dibuat dgn agak grand + meriah 8 januari lalu… dah serupa mcm kenduri kawen dah… heuheu… tapi nantilah… sibuk sikit + masa takde… lenkali aja… huehue…

Note : terlepas peluang nak tengok muka ray tarmizie yg dulunya aku suke sgt pi bukak blog die sbb die sgt² kreatif + jiwang karatzzz… ahahaha… tak sangka die jd ustaz kat skulah mak aku tuh… hihih… bak kata mak, ustaz² kat SKTC tu sume yg jenis huha huha punye, xde rupa cam ustaz pong… keke…


Search Terms for all days ending 2008-12-27 (Summarized)

December 27, 2008

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Hati aku…

December 13, 2008

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don’t know where to start…

October 21, 2008

hampir 9 bulan berhenti menulis di sini… kalo mengandung, maybe dah terberanak dah… huahuahua… 9 bulan jugak la bermacam² kisah suke duke yg tlah terjadi dlm idop aku… hmm… bila pk² balik, rase cam nak putar je balik masa kembali ke tahun 1981… hahaha…

sejak clash ngan EL, aku ingatkan aku da xkan berdua semula… err… ok… aku tipu je… mmg aku rase akan ada pengganti dia… tp kalo ikutkan ati, aku mahu dia jadi yg terakhir… dulu aku penah bagitau EL jugak ttg hal ni… mane de benda such as “cinta sampai mati”… kalo betol pun ngaku camtu, percayelah, takde maknenyelah… aku da tak reti nak bercerita… pasal EL, cukuplah apa yg aku lalui dgnnya… semua tu kenangan… walaupun aku dah maafkan dia, tapi still aku takkan boleh lupakan dan aku jugak sama sekali tak bleh halalkan semuanya… lu pikirlah sendiri ye EL…

lepas EL, aku bertemu dgn 2 org jejaka… ok… satu je sbnrnya… satu lagi di alam maya je… but keduanya mahu memiliki aku… kononnnya… mcm nak gila aku rasa setelah mengenali mereka berdua… yg sorg sampai bergaduh dgn makwenye sbb aku dituduh perampas… manalah ku tahu pakwenye tu menipu aku… die cakap dia solo… kan dah kena tipu dedua sekali… sampai diorang ‘bercerai-berai’… aku rasa bukan aku 100% puncanya… maybe sikit… tapi aku rasa bersyukur diorang clash… bukan dengki ke iri ati ke dendam ke ape… tapi itu utk kebaikan si perempuan kot… minah ni pun da jadi kawan aku… kami okey… ex pakwenye tu yg aku rase tak okey… kesian… sengal sangat… ops ;p ;p ;p…

jejaka maya… ntah… aku pun x kenal dia… beriye + bersungguh benar nak berkenalan ngan aku… hanya kerana gambar… mane tah la die jumpe aku kat frenster tuh… aku pun masa tu kununnya nak cari lebih ramai kawan… nak hiburkan hati… takde niat lain pun… tanpa aku sedar, dia mahu kami jadi lebih drpd kawan… aku ni plak mmg tak bersedia langsung… mcm ape je rasa masa tu… bodo² je pi layan org tu… rimas… rasa sesak pala otak dgn org yg terlalu mendesak… sudahnya aku ckp aku dah terima pilihan keluarga dan dia pergi camtu je… bagus gak…

pilihan keluarga… betul kot… aku tak tipu… dlm masa yg sama, seseorang yg aku dah anggap mcm ahli keluarga aku sendiri mahu kenalkan kawan baiknya pada aku… senang cite, nak jodohkan kami… dah lama dia suggestkan kawan dia… lepas je putus ngan EL actually… tapi aku buat bodo je… sampai la 26hb ogos, aku jugak (sekali lagi) yg mulakan semuanya… kalo tak, jgn harap la… tentu xkan jadi pape… aku sms dia… tupun secara tak sengaja ada selisih paham ngan ‘ahli keluarga’ aku ni… ok… aku gelar ahli keluarga ni ‘pakcik’… kawan baiknye ‘EM’… boleh la… L, M… kalo tau, lu ganti je L sama M… dpt itu nama juga… muahaha…

Sejak 26 ogos, mcm² gak yg terjadi… drpd x kenal, sampai la aku kenal EM drpd cerita pacik yg memuji drpd A sampai la ke Z, sampai aku jumpa EM sendiri… sampai ke hari ni, hubungan kami masih berterusan… dipendekkan cerita, raya aku cukup bermakna dgn adanya dia… raya ketiga, kali pertama aku jumpa dia… seminggu selepas tu, aku jumpa dia lagi di Kajang di rumah abang… drpd x kenal, tetibe jadi sedara… kebetulan agaknye… mak aku suka… family kakak ipar apa lagi… aku rasa cam dah x boleh lari lagi… aku rasa dialah orgnya… hmm… aku tak rasa apa²… tatau nak ckp apa… terima jelah seadanya… mungkin dialah pilihanNya…

terima kasih pakcik kerana kenalkan dia… mungkin betul katanya… paling serasi + secocok utk aku… zodiak dah serasi… sehati sejiwa la kononnya… peratus pun perfect… tak pernah langsung aku duga… semuanya mainan semata… sama² saling menyinta… aku harap bahagia + kekal sampai ke syurga… ameen…


Which emoticon are you?

January 14, 2008

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apsal ropa die cam takot²??? huhuhu… tak angel langsung… huahua…


LOOK FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY AND SEE WHAT YOU ARE

January 3, 2008

[forwarded e-mail by J, A, double N, E, double T, E]

January 01 – 09 ~ Dog
January 10 – 24 ~ Mouse
January 25 – 31 ~ Lion
February 01 – 05 ~ Cat
February 06 – 14 ~ Dove
February 15 – 21 ~ Turtle
February 22 – 28 ~ Panther
March 01 – 12 ~ Monkey
March 13 – 15 ~ Lion
March 16 – 23 ~ Mouse
March 24 – 31 ~ Cat
April 01 – 03 ~ Dog
April 04 – 14 ~ Panther
April 15 – 26 ~ Mouse
April 27 – 30 ~ Turtle
May 01 – 13 ~ Monkey
May 14 – 21 ~ Dove
May 22 – 31 ~ Lion
June 01 – 03 ~ Mouse
June 04 – 14 ~ Turtle
June 15 – 20 ~ Dog
June 21 – 24 ~ Monkey
June 25 – 30 ~ Cat
July 01 – 09 ~ Mouse – Me
July 10 – 15 ~ Dog
July 16 – 26 ~ Dove
July 27 – 31 ~ Cat
August 01 – 15 ~ Monkey
August 16 – 25 ~ Mouse
August 26 – 31 ~ Turtle
September 01 – 14 ~ Dove
September 15 – 27 ~ Cat
September 28 – 30 ~ Dog
October 01 – 15 ~ Monkey
October 16 – 27 ~ Turtle
October 28 – 31 ~ Panther
November 01 – 16 ~ Lion
November 17 – 30 ~ Cat – El
December 01 – 16 ~ Dog
December 17 – 25 ~ Monkey
December 26 – 31 ~ Dove

If you are a Dog : A very loyal and sweet person. Your loyalty can never be doubted. You are quite honest and sincere when it comes to your attitude towards working. You are a very simple person, indeed. Absolutely hassle free, humble and down-to-earth!! That explains the reason why your friends cling on to you! You have a good taste for clothes. If your wardrobe is not updated with what is trendy, you sure are depressed. Popular and easy-going. You have a little group of dignified friends, all of them being quality-personified.

If you are a Mouse : Always up to some sort of a mischief! The mischievous gleam in your eyes is what makes you so cute and attractive to everyone. You are an extremely fun-to-be-with kind of person. No wonder people seek for your company and look forward to include you for all get-together’s. However, you are sensitive which is a drawback. People need to select their words while talking to you. If someone tries to fiddle around and play with words while dealing with you, it is enough to invite your wrath. God bless the person then!

If you are a Lion : Quite contradictory to your name, you are a peace loving person. You best try to avoid a situation wherein you are required to fight. An outdoor person, you dislike sitting at one place for a long duration. Popular and easy-going. You are a born leader, and have it in you how to tactfully derive work from people. People love the way you always treat them. You love being loved, and when you receive your share of limelight from someone, you are all theirs!!!!

If you are a Cat : An extremely lovable, adorable person, sometimes shy, with a passion for quick wit. At times, you prefer quietness. You love exploring various things and going into depth of each thing. Under normal circumstances you’re cool but when given a reason to, you are like a volcano waiting to erupt. You’re a fashion bird. People look forward to you as an icon associated with fashion. Basically, you mingle along freely but don’t like talking much to strangers. People feel very easy in your company. You observe care in choosing your friends.

If you are a Turtle : You are near to perfect and nice at heart. The examples of your kindness are always circulated in groups of people. You, too, love peace. You wouldn’t like to retaliate even to a person who is in the wrong. You are loved due to this. You do not wish to talk behind one’s back. People love the way you always treat them. You can give, give and give love, and the best part is that you do not expect it back in return. You are generous enough. Seeing things in a practical light is what remains the best trait of you guys.

If you are a Dove : You symbolize a very happy-go-lucky approach in life. Whatever the surroundings may be, grim or cheerful, you remain unaffected. In fact, you spread cheer wherever you go. You are the leader of your group of friends and good at consoling people in their times of need. You dislike hypocrisy and tend to shirk away from hypocrites. They can never be in your good books, no matter what. You are very methodical and organized in your work. No amount of mess, hence, can ever encompass you. Beware, it is easy for you to fall in love….  

If you are a Panther : You are mysterious. You are someone who can handle pressure with ease, and can handle any atmosphere without going berserk. You can be mean at times, and love to gossip with your selected group. Very prim and proper. You like all situations and things to be in the way you desire, which, sometimes is not possible. As a result, you may lose out in some relationships. But otherwise, you love to help people out from difficult and tight spots when they really need you.

If you are a Monkey : Very impatient and hyper!!! You want things to be done as quick as possible. At heart, you are quite simple and love if you are the center of attraction. That way, you people are unique. You would like to keep yourself safe from all the angles. Shall your name be dragged or featured in any sort of a controversy, you then go all panicky. Therefore, you take your precautions from the very beginning. When you foresee anything wrong, your sixth sense is what saves you from falling in traps. Quite a money minded bunch you people are!!


tergantung… pending… ngaaa~!

December 29, 2007

tgh ske gile kat lagu ini~!!! 

Gantung by Melly Goeslaw

Ku harus menemui cintaku
Mencari tahu hubungan kita
Apa masih atau tlah berakhir

Kau menggantungkan hubungan ini
Kau diamkan aku tanpa sebab
Maunya apa ku harus bagaimana
Kasih…

Sampai kapan kau gantung
Cerita cintaku memberi harapan
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

Detik-detik waktu pun terbuang
Teganya kau menggantung cintaku
Bicaralah biar semua pasti

Tentunya hubungan cinta denganmu
Membuat ku sakit
Hingga mungkin ku tak sanggup lagi
Dan meninggalkan dirimu

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turn aku bile plak???

December 26, 2007

Selamat Pengantin Baru Lynn + hubby~! Sweet jek tgk gamba mereka nih…

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* Jammed *

November 26, 2007

arini… ari² seblom neh… sejak Mr. J amek db aku, aku jadik cam stuck nak buat keje… tak reti nak buat apa, x tau nak wat apa dulu, walhal aku tahu ada kerja/benda yg harus aku buat… aku rasa Mr. J mcm aku… kalau dah buat sesuatu, kalau dah mulakan, kalau buat kerja, lebih prefer abiskan/buat sorg… seblum ini pun aku dah noticed perkara itu… dia akan buat sampai abis, dia buat sorg, lepas tu nnt baru dia bagi aku, tunjuk + aja apa yg dah dia buat/siapkan… tapi bila 2 org dah menggunakan db yg sama, rasa cam payah pulak nak buat pape walaupun kepala otak Mr. J tu mungkin suda set “tak apa… buat saja…” tapi bila dah namanya Cik Zatil yg lagi sorg kena buat program ni, aku rasa cam payah jeeeeee… hukhukhuk…

ada field baru yg Mr. J tambah… begitu juga dgn query… bukan setakat tambah, dia buat baru trus… huwaa… teruk la aku nak memahamkannye nnt… sedey la i… hisk~!… dah la yg si Az punye sampai saket kapla aku nak paham… Mr. J punye method lagi la ikut cara dia yg mmg xde dlm mana-mana buku/notes xs… yg part aku pun ade field baru yg aku tambah… query juga suda berubah… aku rasa cam nak nanges je bila memikirkan camne nak detect error/perubahan yg dah dibuat… nak compare db die ngan aku nnt rase cam payah je… hukhukhuk… bukan x ske detect mende tuh… tapi ia memakan masa… aku takut bos bawah push org sebla aku ni je… karang die push aku pulak… abih la sesi tolak-menolak berlaku lagi… tensi gue… mcm nak aje tunggu Mr. J siapkan dia punye… pastu baru aku sambung buat kat db die… hmm… camne neh eak… ark ark ark~!

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rabu lepas, aku bincang dgn Mr. J pasal problem yg x setel² dgn akunye report… asek dpt figures yg sala… lepas duduk berbincang dan dia pun cuba nak tlg aku mana yg sala, dia buat keputusan utk tlg buat sbb benda yg nak disetelkan ni agak besa… mmg x bole nak betulkan sikit² mcm selalu, pastu taraaaa!… dah dpt solve… huhuhu… bukan begitu kesnya kali ni… dan aku agak relief sbb apa yg aku buat selama ni mmg betul, dia setuju dan mmg patut aku buat apa yg da aku buat… cuma query si Az yg aku sambung alter tu je yg buat masalah sikit… hukhukhuk… mmg pening kapla la nengok… aku pun cam x paham ape yg Az buat… tapi belasah aje la buat…

bila dah t/o db Az, aku semakin sedar yg aku cukup terer detect apa yg missing, cari kesalahan… hwahwahwa… bagus jugak sebenarnya berbincang dgn Mr. J neh… lepas bincang berdua, kenalpasti apa yg silap, nnt dia pulak bertekak dgn minah 2 org sebla aku nih… kekeke… baru sedar ade benda yg xde dlm xl… haha… bukan sala gua la erk… jenuh gua import data drpd xl… jenuh nak kenalpasti column dlm xl utk field yg mana dlm xs… seme cam lebih kurang je… cukup byk no dan tarikh… gile gua nengok… hwahwahwa…

so arini, cam nak buat layout report baru je, nnt i export dlm db Mr. J… hal tambah menambah, gua buat kemudian saja dlm db yg kat Mr. J… cam malash je nak buat keje 2, 3 kalik… huhuhuhu… arini aku tensi… takde mood… ceh… macam aku pulek yg PMS… arkk… dah ujung bulan… camni la… hwahwahwa… rase cam nak abeskan masa buat T&A la… kekeke… gile melagha… nak layan baipress, mcm dah hambar sgt je… seme org tensi kot… ke seme buat² bizi?… hukhukhuk… lalalalala… Cik Beskot mengong lagi… ngaaa~!


Personality Disorders

November 23, 2007

Paranoid Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Paranoid personality disorder is characterized by a distrust of others and a constant suspicion that people around you have sinister motives. People with this disorder tend to have excessive trust in their own knowledge and abilities and usually avoid close relationships. They search for hidden meanings in everything and read hostile intentions into the actions of others. They are quick to challenge the loyalties of friends and loved ones and often appear cold and distant. They usually shift blame to other people and tend to carry long grudges.

Symptoms of Paranoid Personality Disorder:

  • Unwillingness to forgive perceived insults
  • Excessive sensitivity to setbacks
  • Distrustfulness and excessive self-reliance
  • Projection of blame onto others
  • Consumed by anticipation of betrayal
  • Combative and tenacious adherence to personal rights
  • Relentlessly suspicious

Additional Information:

Paranoid personality disorder is difficult to treat, as paranoids are often extremely suspicious of medical professionals. A combination of medication and talk therapy can be effective at combating the more debilitating symptoms of this disorder.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/paranoid.html

Schizoid Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

People with schizoid personality disorder avoid relationships and do not show much emotion. Unlike avoidants, schizoids genuinely prefer to be alone and do not secretly wish for popularity. They tend to seek jobs that require little social contact. Their social skills are often weak and they do not show a need for attention or acceptance. They are perceived by others as humorless and distant and often are termed “loners.”

Symptoms of Schizoid Personality Disorder:

  • Weak interpersonal skills
  • Difficulty expressing anger, even when provoked
  • “Loner” mentality; avoidance of social situations
  • Appear to others as remote, aloof, and unengaged
  • Low sexual desire
  • Unresponsive to praise or criticism

Additional Information:

It is important to distinguish schizoid from avoidant. Avoidants will feel anxiety in social situations and have the desire to fit in, while schizoids simply prefer to be alone. It is occassionally difficult to distinguish between schizoid and Asperger’s, as well.

This disorder is diagnosed more frequently and is often more severe among males. Schizoids usually do not seek treatment on their own and are often coaxed into it by a loved one.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/schizoid.html

Schizotypal Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Many believe that schizotypal personality disorder represents mild schizophrenia. The disorder is characterized by odd forms of thinking and perceiving, and individuals with this disorder often seek isolation from others. They sometimes believe to have extra sensory ability or that unrelated events relate to them in some important way. They generally engage in eccentric behavior and have difficulty concentrating for long periods of time. Their speech is often over elaborate and difficult to follow.

Symptoms of Schizotypal Personality Disorder:

  • Odd or eccentric mannerisms or appearance
  • Superstitious or preoccupied with paranormal phenomena
  • Difficult to follow speech patterns
  • Feelings of anxiety in social situations
  • Suspiciousness and paranoia
  • Odd beliefs or magical thinking
  • Appears shy, aloof, or withdrawn to others

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/schizotypal.html

Antisocial Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

A common misconception is that antisocial personality disorder refers to people who have poor social skills. The opposite is often the case. Instead, antisocial personality disorder is characterized by a lack of conscience. People with this disorder are prone to criminal behavior, believing that their victims are weak and deserving of being taken advantage of. Antisocials tend to lie and steal. Often, they are careless with money and take action without thinking about consequences. They are often agressive and are much more concerned with their own needs than the needs of others.

Symptoms of Antisocial Personality Disorder:

  • Disregard for the feelings of others
  • Impulsive and irresponsible decision-making
  • Lack of remorse for harm done to others
  • Lying, stealing, other criminal behaviors
  • Disregard for the safety of self and others

Additional Information:

A majority of criminals in prison have some degree of antisocial personality disorder. Treatment is highly difficult, although the symptoms often diminish with age.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/antisocial.html

Borderline Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Borderline personality disorder is characterized by mood instability and poor self-image. People with this disorder are prone to constant mood swings and bouts of anger. Often, they will take their anger out on themselves, causing injury to their own body. Suicidal threats and actions are not uncommon. Borderlines think in very black and white terms and often form intense, conflict-ridden relationships. They are quick to anger when their expectations are not met.

Symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder:

  • Self-injury or attempted suicide
  • Strong feelings of anger, anxiety, or depression that last for several hours
  • Impulsive behavior
  • Drug or alcohol abuse
  • Feelings of low self-worth
  • Unstable relationships with friends, family, and boyfriends/girlfriends

Additional Information:

Borderline personality disorder was so-named because it was originally thought to be at the “borderline” of psychosis. The disorder is relatively common, affecting 2% of adults. Women are much more likely to suffer borderline than men. Nearly 20% of psychiatric hospitalizations are due to borderline. With treatment, patients are often able to see their symptoms improve.

Treatment involves therapy in which the patient learns to talk through his or her feelings rather than unleashing them in destructive and self-defeating ways. Medication may be helpful, and treatment of any alcohol or substance abuse issues is required. Brief hospitalization is sometimes required, especially in cases involving psychotic episodes or suicide threats or attempts.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/borderline.html

Histrionic Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

People with histrionic personality disorder are constant attention seekers. They need to be the center of attention all the time, often interrupting others in order to dominate the conversation. They use grandiose language to discribe everyday events and seek constant praise. They may dress provacatively or exaggerate illnesses in order to gain attention. Histrionics also tend to exaggerate friendships and relationships, believing that everyone loves them. They are often manipulative.

Symptoms of Histrionic Personality Disorder:

  • Needs to be the center of attention
  • Dresses or acts provocatively
  • Rapidly-shifting and shallow emotions
  • Exaggerates friendships
  • Overly-dramatic, occassionally theatrical speech
  • easily influenced; highly suggestible

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/histrionic.html

Narcissistic Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Narcissistic personality disorder is characterized by self-centeredness. Like histrionic disorder, people with this disorder seek attention and praise. They exaggerate their achievements, expecting others to recongize them as being superior. They tend to be choosy about picking friends, since they believe that not just anyone is worthy of being their friend. Narcissists tend to make good first impressions, yet have difficulty maintaining long-lasting relationships. They are generally uninterested in the feelings of others and may take advantage of them.

Symptoms of Narcissistic Personality Disorder:

  • Requires excessive praise and admiration
  • Takes advantage of others
  • Grandiose sense of self-importance
  • Lack of empathy
  • Lying, to self and others
  • Obsessed with fantasies of fame, power, or beauty

Additional Information:

Narcissism is most often found in men and is often diagnosed with other mental disorders.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/narcissistic.html

Avoidant Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Avoidant personality disorder is characterized by extreme social anxiety. People with this disorder often feel inadequate, avoid social situations, and seek out jobs with little contact with others. Avoidants are fearful of being rejected and worry about embarassing themselves in front of others. They exaggerate the potential difficulties of new situations to rationalize avoiding them. Often, they will create fantasy worlds to substitute for the real one. Unlike schizoid personality disorder, avoidants yearn for social relations yet feel they are unable to obtain them. They are frequently depressed and have low self-confidence.

Symptoms of Avoidant Personality Disorder:

  • Social inhibition; retreating from others in anticipation of rejection
  • Preoccupation with being rejected or criticized in social situations
  • Fear of embarrassment results in avoidance of new activities
  • Poor self-image; feelings of social ineptitude
  • Desire for improved social relations
  • Appear to others as self-involved and unfriendly
  • Creation of elaborate fantasy lives

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/avoidant.html

Dependent Personality Disorder

Quick Summary:

Dependent personality disorder is characterized by a need to be taken care of. People with this disorder tend to cling to people and fear losing them. They may become suicidal when a break-up is imminent. They tend to let others make important decisions for them and often jump from relationship to relationship. Dependents often remain in abusive relationships. Over-sensitivity to disapproval is common. Dependents often feel helpless and depressed.

Symptoms of Dependent Personality Disorder:

  • Difficulty making decisions
  • Feelings of helplessness when alone
  • Suicidal thoughts upon rejection
  • Submissiveness
  • Deeply hurt by mild criticism or disapproval
  • Unable to meet ordinary demands of life

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/dependent.html

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder (OCDP)

Quick Summary:

While Obsessive-Compulsive personality disorder (OCDP) sounds similar in name to obsessive-compulsive anxiety disorder, the two are markedly different disorders. People with obsessive-compulsive personality disorder are overly focused on orderliness and perfection. Their need to do everything “right” often interferes with their productivity. They tend to get caught up in the details and miss the bigger picture. They set unreasonably high standards for themselves and others, and tend to be very critical of others when they do not live up to these high standards. They avoid working in teams, believing others to be too careless or incompetent. They avoid making decisions because they fear making mistakes and are rarely generous with their time or money. They often have difficulty expressing emotion.

Symptoms of Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder:

  • Need for perfection and excessive discipline
  • Preoccupation with orderliness
  • Inflexibility
  • Lack of generosity
  • Hyper-focus on details and rules
  • Excessive devotion to work

Additional Information:

The potential for improvement with treatment is better for obsessive-compulsive personality disorder than for other personality disorders. A combination of medication and therapy tends to yield positive results.

Source: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/ocd.html


gua mmg ade personality disorder lah… ngaaa~!…

November 23, 2007

This is me… (kesimpulan MyPersonality test)

November 22, 2007

Common Characteristics (Personality)

- good at drawing
- enjoys photography
- good at artistic composition

Career Matches (Personality)

- artist (hobi aku masa kecik + sekolah, melukis)
- architect (cita-cita aku masa start amik CE kat sekolah… huhuhu… tapi tak kesampaian sbb takut dgn intebiu nak masuk u… hukhukhuk~!)
- graphic designer (cita-cita masa kat u bila dah amek CS… tapik tak kesampaian jugak sebab amek major laen… ngaaa~!)
- photographer (hobi aku skang… hihih)

Common Characteristics (Multiple Intelligence)

- prefers working alone (hehehe… mcm payah je nak keje dgn org… keje dlm group bule aje… tapi aku lebih prefer keje tu aku buat yg part aku je… takmo keje ngan sape²… hikhikhik)
- self-aware (very very very very self-aware… ngaa~!)
- perfectionistic (ini mmg aku sedar dr dulu… huhu~!)
- enjoys journaling (ngaaa… dah sahih dah ;p ;p ;p)
- spends time thinking and reflecting (hukhukhuk… terlalu byk pikir dah rasenye… overload!… kuikuikui!)
- likes learning about self (very true!)

Career Matches (Multiple Intelligence)

- psychologist (takde la sampai nak jadikan karier tapi setakat jadik tukang dgr masalah org tu byk kali la jugak… penah jadik PRS kat skola… tapi skang ni cam diri sendirinye masalah lagi manyak kot… hihihi…)
- philosopher (ni pun x mampu nak jadi kot… tapi cukup minat bace ayat falsafah… dah tak mampu nak jadi camtu, makanya minat je la yg buleh…)
- writer (ini salah satu kebolehan aku gamaknye… penah jugak la masuk peraduan mengarang masa skola dulu… karangan BM pun byk jugak la dpt A… hehe… mmg suke berceloteh kot aku neh… huuuu!)

ISFP – The “Artist”

ISFPs are artistic, creative, loyal and sensitive (sangat² setuju!… kesemuanya ada pada aku rasenye… haha!… perasankah saye? ;p ;p ;p). They have a keen appreciation for beauty (ya… aku sgt² mengagumi kecantikan sampaikan pompuan lawa pun aku suke sgt nenok dan aku paling pelik taste lelaki yg tgk pompuan… aku tgk lawa je, tapi mata lelaki ni tataw la… nak yg perfect abih kot baru dia ckp lawa… huhuhu) because of their highly developed senses. They are easy to get along with (org akan cpt + mudah mesra dgn aku… sbb tu aku x pelik kalau ade org yg suke aku walaupun baru first time jumpe… dan aku mmg tak pelik kalau dah berkali² aku cpt suka + berkawan dgn org… hwahwahwa… aku mmg dah agak… tapi aku seringkali buat bodo ttg hal ini sbb aku mmg jenis yg sedar diri… huhuhu… kalau bole xnak riak + bangga diri… aku pun x ske org dok puji aku gitu gini ataupun dok suke aku lelebih… kalau aku bole buat dia x ske aku pun bagus gak… hehehe) and live in the “here and now”. ISFPs are adaptable, caring, independent and like to contribute to the well-being of others. They are typically hard to get to know (memang~! ;p ;p ;p).

ISFP Career Matches

antara keje yg aku minat + prefer drpd keje skang… kalau la boleh pun… huuuu…

- administrative assistant
- artist
- child care
- counselor
- designer
- early childhood development
- editor
- librarian
- musician
- psychologist
- teacher (ini mungkin bole… hukhukhuk!)
- writer (ini juga… muahahaha~!)

kesimpulannye kan… aku rasa cam ade betulnye result² nih… sebelum ni pun bukan x penah buat kuiz/test ginih… dan resultnye pun hampir sama… bebalik artist, artistic, spatial, caring, sensitive… itu je la yg selalu kuwa… hikhikhik… paling awal aku buat test mcm ni masa form 3… time tu sume budak form 3 ade taklimat khas utk pemilihan aliran kelas nak masuk form 4… seme budak kena buat test ni… dan aku dpt keputusan yg mmg aku paling suke + dah dpt agak… aliran sastera… ngahaha… tapik tataw kenapa aku x nak amik aliran sastera… masa tu agak pressure kot ngan apa yg aku nak ngan apa yg org lain nak aku buat… huuuu… tapi nak pk ape lagi kan… dah lama dah berlalu…

byk keputusan yg aku sesali… byk yg aku rasa cam ralat sgt kenapa tak buat apa yg aku nak… apa yg aku minat… kenapa aku lebih suke ikut ckp org… kenapa aku pilih jalan aku yg sekarang ini… dan soklan-soklan ini selalu saja bermain dlm kepala otak ni… aku harus buat keputusan yg betul jugak somehow… someday… peluang takkan dtg berkali-kali… tapi ntah la… peluang yg dtg kat aku cam byk kali jugak la aku lepaskan begitu aje… ruginye kan?… ke aku yg bodo???